Inside are things called "Class Notes". I've published a few in my time, the new job, the birth of each child, my marriage (which came before the birth of my children (hee hee)). Those kinds of things. I'm always looking for the names of people I knew in college to see what they might be up to, or to remind me of some of the good times I had during my college years. I dearly loved my college life. It was the best time (pre marriage) that I've ever had.
So ... while reading through those, I started to feel a little bit like I wasn't doing anything with my life. I have a $48,000 education (which was a lot of money back then) and I stay at home with my kids. I'm not sad or discontented, but I felt a little like maybe I was wasting my God given talents by not pursuing a higher level of challenging work. My entire life people have told me how 'smart' I was, and when I saw people really advancing their education and doing impressive, difficult things, I began to think maybe I had squandered my intelligence and education by quitting my job and staying home with my kids.
Mind you, I don't really want to be at work right now, I'm happy with where I am and Creative Memories allows me to use my mind and skills to earn some money and help folks preserve their special moments, but I just couldn't help but feel a little bit like maybe I should be doing more.
I posted this on my Facebook status and the responses are below:
Sometimes I read about what people are doing in my University's magazine and I am just a little saddened by where I am in my life. What did I do with the education my parents paid for and I worked so hard to earn? I asked my Dad one time after I quit work if he was disappointed in me ... without a hesitation he said ... he didn't want anyone else raising his grandchildren. Thanks, Dad.
I received some very interesting comments back from people and I wanted to share them:
These woman had very interesting things to say. Some of them I had thought of and agree with myself, others expressed things differently than I have ever considered before, but all in all, I think I will always wonder "What if?" because that's the type of person I am. I do know that I will never regret my decision to walk out of Sprint in January of 1998 and begin my new adventure. If anyone has any doubts that my children had a fun and loving upbringing, they can come over and look at the photo albums and see the fun we've had. Sometimes I go back through the albums to remind myself that there have been more good times than bad. In the end, we remember what we choose to focus on, and I'm going to choose to remember the many trips to the zoo, museum, McD's playland, etc.
I would love to continue this conversation here by you posting comments. I have so many friends in so many different stages of life. Early motherhood, single no kids, divorced with kids, married and empty nested, married and teenagers ..... I'd love to hear what you think about how you are raising your children, what does it mean to you to be a parent and when you look back on raising them, what do you remember most? Let me know.